Being with you is fun, i always think of your smile when I’m angry and i start smiling

I know it's been long since I last blogged. But well, there's no audience here either I guess. I will just update as and when I'm free I hope will be daily though. Have been tumblr-ing though, but it's such a hassle to upload photos to tumblr, because the words I typed could only be captions, so I shall just do my normal blogging here and 'secrets' over at tumblr. Hahaha. 

Well, it's already the week 7. (Oh ya, if you're wondering why am I so free to blog at such timings on a Monday) Well, I skipped school today (not like what you guys think "Haiyo, pon ten!") to be more specific, I let school a miss today due to my eyelid's skin giving me problem. I do have sensitive skin problems and that whenever I'm not having enough rest my eyelid's skin will start to tear. So painful that I just got to rest my eyes, so I didn't skip school for nothing. 

So as I was saying Week 7 now and Week 8's already the Common Test week. Derp. I'm not well prepared for my OOPG. Yes, it's true that I have only 3 modules to handle for my Common Test, but that doesn't literally mean that it's all easy modules. However, I'm glad that I have 2 modules involving calculations. Maths has always been my strongest subject since I started schooling from young. I hope this will be beneficial to me for the 2 modules and actually do well for them. 

You guys might be thinking, why such sudden motivation on doing well for the modules. Frankly speaking, graduation help out last Friday made me realise that having great accomplishment in school is such a big deal. While carrying out my duty, I heard some graduate's bf said, "这个世界就是那么现实." Shall explain a little on this because I find this true yet in a dilemma to agree to it. This whole sentence came about because after graduation ceremony for the graduates, they would be invited out to the lobby for some refreshments. Ngee Ann actually had this small lounge at the side of the lobby for the GOH, staff, VIPs and Medalist holders. Yes, which means that Medalist holders' family/friends could enter. Those normal graduates will be having their refreshments out at the lobby area. So as I was standing there, guarding the doors, this person pass by and let out the remark. I find it interesting, as it's really true about the living world that we're currently in right now. Not that I'm complaining about this realistic world. As you can see the difference of high and low status quo. So I really hope I can be one standing in the lounge inviting my parents/friends in, letting them feel proud of me. (: So for this, I've only got this last year to buck up and try my best for this honorable step in the lounge. 

Enough of all this studies, a little sharing of photos I have over the week. (:

Went over to Dialogue in the Dark on Wednesday. 

Was pretty fun, will elaborate more on this the next post. 

Sat spent over at CHR (Christ Church Sec).

Photographer for this event called the Honoring Parents' Day. 

Will share my experience for this event, as it's my first time as a photographer attending such.

Spent my Sunday revamping my room. Okay, part of my room. 

And I'm pretty delighted by the decorations I made! :D

So till my next post, we will meet. :D 

A quote for all, 

There's no right or wrong in love, it's all in the destiny of us. 

Nope~ I just thought of how promises let us here. How we built the relations, how we broke it.

Back to February

Annyeonghaseyo minions! I've got WFT quiz later on. Yet I'm still blogging. Well, exam's are hitting us right now, yet mugging ain't mugging for me. I don't know what am I doing. Wasting my time just staring at the papers as though I am studying very hard for my papers. I don't want my GPA to drop. But am forever whining. I can't afford to score badly for this papers. Because my CT ones are horribly horrible. Shall try harder. Mug harder. I CAN DO IT!

Sidetrack a bit. School work aside. Well, there's too many birthdays going on this Feb. Alright, I guess it's only this year. With the increasing number of important people in my life. But the worst ones will be you. I can't even believe that I even took the effort to freaking think of how to celebrate with you because you're forever complaining no one would. Thanks for going to the mj at HIS HOUSE! What a joke I am. I even planned every single thing as to collaborate with your mother. Now I feel so dumb. I don't wish to say any single thing anymore. I know after training camp everything will be different. I just didn't expect a REVENGE. Fuck yeah. _|_

Back to mugging! Meh

You won't know how it feels.

I thought I could. I thought I had. I thought I am. I thought I...

But now, I wish I could, I wish I had, I wish I am.

I really wonder what kind of attractiveness you hold. Why is that hard to actually just not care about your stuffs? Is it so difficult?

Why am I so wanting to read? Curiosity? Self-denial don't help much.

It will be some time before I see you again. I shall try to psycho myself to really make you a jerk in my eye. Never a guy I can trust like how I trusted in the past.

Never that guy in my eyes who will be there for me.

Never a guy I can actually say I understand him well.

Never a guy that I will repeatedly say I have confident in him.

That's how bad my impression of you should be and nothing else.
Be sure, I will cross this hurdle. Because I don't wanna look like a fool anymore.

Never ever.

Back to revive a lil

Happy 2012 everyone.

Suddenly having the great feel to just update a little over here. Having to say, welcoming 2012 with mix feelings. 2011 ain't bad after all, but definitely there's happ

iness and sorrows that left in my memories. So here I go doing some little trackback now.

• Ending my very first year in NP as an Engineering student.
• Joining the volleyball committee as a Secretary.
• Starting and ending my first ever unforgettable relationship during my tertiary years
• Involving in Bonding Camp 2011 as one of the organizer
• Found 2 cute 'sons' that form Vogue Family
• Getting super close with my girls
• Hanging out more with ECE ppl
• Virgin chalet experience over at Sentosa
• Going gaga over kpop from idk when
• Training camp was great being fairy godmother (though it's a freaking week in school)
• Steamboat with family
• X'mas countdown with Awesome-ers over at Jeff's house
• X'mas celebration over at Rachel's house with vball-ers
• Having chalet with big clique
• Got myself a place for internship (Yay!)
• Going USS with Awesome-ers
• Getting b'day surprises from my lovelies
• Enjoying b'day celebration with family and vball-ers
• Ending the year with Superb cool ppl watching fireworks from bridge doing epic stuffs

This might seem short. But I really did enjoy myself throughout this year. Be it happy or sad, I had fun. Sorrowful experiences shall be a mistake learnt and hoping that 2012 will be a different one. A big thank you to everyone who's involve in my 2011, making my 2011 a fruitful one.

I'm glad for Superb cool ppl, Awesome-ers and Vball-ers came into my life. Nothing beats fun-filled day with them.

With a new year, a new start. Start of the year and things are getting a little too stressful. Having to know half of my Year 3 life will be out of school, having myself attached to a company and making full use of what I've learnt in school for the 2 and half years. On top of that, having a role of Vice-President in Vball.comm is yet another stressful fact. Having lots of events to handle, Open House which is ongoing, S&W inter-class as in-charge, etc. Gotten back unsatisfying results from Common Test in 2011. What a way to start off my new term. I should stop being so laid-back and start to buck up for my exams. NYR 1 : Not to skip any lessons anymore, unless necessary. Things will be better that way. I think I really cannot be hardworking, the more hardworking I am, my results will be bad. Don't laugh at this fact! NYR 2 : Be more brave. I cried twice yesterday, once during Open House, all thanks to the stupid Lion Dance Troupe and another one was when I'm home, encountering a baby lizard crawling on my ceiling while I was watching show. How great that is. Stop wondering and asking me why I'm afraid of Lion Dance. So loser. I know right. But I can't help it but to be afraid of it. That's infuriating. Lizards and any moving living things will be a great fear to me. They are like the modern dinosaur to me.

Right. Think it's damn wordy. Don't force yourself to read. It's nothing but common things that happen in my life. Have a great year ahead everyone. I will try my best to update more often. NYR 3 : Update my blog more often. I will try to upload photos too! Annyeong~

傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真，还在期待奇迹出现的我。都不想相信你会忘了这一切。


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine

Talking to the moon

Quote by Edwin...

当你累了，就要休息一下。

当你想放弃继续去做一样东西，就问自己当初为何选择去做。

放弃了，你会后悔吗？

All the memories

Running in mind. Never a stop to it. Recalling how we use to 'bicker' for stupid stuffs. How I got 'angry' at you and you will actually hong wo. We used to walk around randomly at town. How we sat at far east's pontian noodle store eating and fooling around. Looking for LZX's name just to make you jealous. How you held my hand on bus for the first time asking me a question that you never had the courage to say before. Texting me how to hold a girls hand when I'm beside you. Looking at your silly face when we're playing Vball. How nervous you got what you spike dao wo. Forever protecting me and helping me with all you can. Looking at the card you did. I miss the lil book. Rmb-ing you saying to get 4d just because I wanna eat subway. Taking care of me whenever I'm sick. Buying me chocolates, koi, bringing me to watch movie. No matter what I wanna watch. How you actually helped me cut up my food into smaller pieces. Wake up early in the morning just to make sure you're awake for your attachment. How it become a daily routine of my life. How we used to complain to each other about the crappy day we had. How we comfort each other with a great smile saying everything will be alright. How we jump from seats to seats just to show that we're 'angry' with each other. And asking each other not to hou hui. Tickling each other just to kill the awkward silence. How we held hands and walk from clementi to school. How we laughed at each other for being dumb. Looking for photos or playing tetris. Every single thing. It will only be something we did before and not something we can do anymore. I really miss you.


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine

I just can't let go.

I was just hoping that all this was just a dream. When someone slapped me hard it will be painless. After I wake up, all of this will be just something I tell you. For all I wish is our solution will never be this. All this while I'm trying to maintain this r/s because I believe it can work. As long as I hold on. As long as we still love each other. The only thing that will break us apart will be no more love in between. But seems like I was wrong. And I think I have to blame myself for this breakup. I'm regretting why I didn't take the initiative to do all those lil things that I could to hold this r/s. If I were to catch hold of your hands just now. I think this won't happen either. If I didn't insist on talking about this and insist on everything, this won't happen. If I had told you about the outing, this won't happen. All I can blame is myself.


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine