傻在宁愿被牺牲也不愿放弃天真，还在期待奇迹出现的我。都不想相信你会忘了这一切。


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine

Talking to the moon

Quote by Edwin...

当你累了，就要休息一下。

当你想放弃继续去做一样东西，就问自己当初为何选择去做。

放弃了，你会后悔吗？

All the memories

Running in mind. Never a stop to it. Recalling how we use to 'bicker' for stupid stuffs. How I got 'angry' at you and you will actually hong wo. We used to walk around randomly at town. How we sat at far east's pontian noodle store eating and fooling around. Looking for LZX's name just to make you jealous. How you held my hand on bus for the first time asking me a question that you never had the courage to say before. Texting me how to hold a girls hand when I'm beside you. Looking at your silly face when we're playing Vball. How nervous you got what you spike dao wo. Forever protecting me and helping me with all you can. Looking at the card you did. I miss the lil book. Rmb-ing you saying to get 4d just because I wanna eat subway. Taking care of me whenever I'm sick. Buying me chocolates, koi, bringing me to watch movie. No matter what I wanna watch. How you actually helped me cut up my food into smaller pieces. Wake up early in the morning just to make sure you're awake for your attachment. How it become a daily routine of my life. How we used to complain to each other about the crappy day we had. How we comfort each other with a great smile saying everything will be alright. How we jump from seats to seats just to show that we're 'angry' with each other. And asking each other not to hou hui. Tickling each other just to kill the awkward silence. How we held hands and walk from clementi to school. How we laughed at each other for being dumb. Looking for photos or playing tetris. Every single thing. It will only be something we did before and not something we can do anymore. I really miss you.


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine

I just can't let go.

I was just hoping that all this was just a dream. When someone slapped me hard it will be painless. After I wake up, all of this will be just something I tell you. For all I wish is our solution will never be this. All this while I'm trying to maintain this r/s because I believe it can work. As long as I hold on. As long as we still love each other. The only thing that will break us apart will be no more love in between. But seems like I was wrong. And I think I have to blame myself for this breakup. I'm regretting why I didn't take the initiative to do all those lil things that I could to hold this r/s. If I were to catch hold of your hands just now. I think this won't happen either. If I didn't insist on talking about this and insist on everything, this won't happen. If I had told you about the outing, this won't happen. All I can blame is myself.


With loves,
Chewytomatoes Eng Elaine