I still didn't have that courage to...

Finally some time for me to update my blog. It's over, the big scale camp for this year. Bonding Camp '12 considered successful? Idk what to talk about the camp. But ya, I just wish that it will be the most memorable camp for those who attended this camp. Thanks everyone for making this camp a successful one with your participation and help. Nothing much I can write about the camp though. I enjoyed the camp and having to htht with so many of them on different days, at different time and place. They bothered to chat with me and make sure that I'm alright. Appreciated much.



After camp, I'm like facing jet lag problems. When I reached home, I slept at like 5plus pm then woke up after a god damn 3 hours. Then had difficulty to sleep till like 5plus am. Then slept the whole of Monday and only woke up at 5plus pm. Hahhaha~ Hibernating on Monday, I know right. Soooooooooo like a bear. Slept like a boss and no one dares to wake me up. *bear attack* So as I was saying when I'm facing insomnia after the 3 hours of sleep on Sunday, I woke up to watch Love Rain. Cried and cried. Dramas mah, what do you expect! Okay, I really really, 진짜 strongly recommend you guys to watch it. (Y) Awesome yozxc.

I always have some thoughts after watching dramas or when something happens.

• I always hope that if my boyfriend ever drives, he will hold onto my hand and drive with one. 
• I always wish he could take over from my Eng family the job to carry me into my room whenever I fell asleep on the sofa. 
• I always wish for little surprises from boyfriend
• I want him to always be there for me whenever I needed. 
• When he realise that I'm in some difficulty he will always appear. 
• I wish boyfriend will always hold onto my hand wherever we go. 

The list just goes on after every love drama I watch. Hahaha. 

Talked to Mama Eng about you for awhile just now. She's like why him again? Why talk to him? Hahaha. I think I should really stop communicating with you. All those little squabbles really getting me into trouble. That is why I didn't chat with you like I always will. I know it's all coming back to me, but there's no way out other than stopping it myself even when I can't. I rather feel the little hurt now than prolong my hurt. I held too long and took too long to let go. That's probably one reason that stopped me from seeing doctor and I've got the reason to not go for training. I knew one day it will be back. Camp got us started. 
Till then folks. <3