Work.

Hello wello~ Look at this!

Hiak hiak! Looking at this means I'm back at work today. I really love it when we're handed with Notes rather than Dell Streaks. I think I'm getting bored with it because it's always Dell. Manzxc.
Though most of the time I won't be using the phone, but I feel happy with it okay! But found some bad points about it today. Sidetrack abit: Today's weather super duper hot I tell you! Okay, so I found out that it's so reflecting sunlight so much that today my participants were complaining to me, asking whether I could like change the brightness setting. BUT it's to the maximum liao 老师。Okay, must be thinking why 老师 right? Hahaha! Today we facilitate a Singapore River Trail for Pei Chun Public School's teachers. Teachers and I don't only meant their teaching staffs. Their HODs, level head, Principal, Vice-principal and etc were all here! How cool was that? Totally not~ The thought of handling with such high authority people, totally not COOL dude. Took about 13 people today, was not much of a problem to me because I do weekend trails, which was the CCs trail. Today's trail so alike those weekends trails, we just have to interact well with them. I almost make trails a learning through sharing experiences.

Soooooo, when I'm taking NCC cadets, I would usually not explain till I grab someone out to read the information either from the phone or the on-ground information board. You know it's good when you can't memorise like 13 checkpoints or more stuffs. You will blank out if you don't take for long! Haha. So after them reciting those information you could elaborate more from there and move on. For weekend trails are much different, not only in their age group. Weekends trail will be more of a chit chat trail rather than having to push NCC cadets to faster finish up their checkpoints so as to compete with other groups. The usage of tone while speaking will be so much of a different one. Though for all my trails, I always joke around with them, when I'm suppose to be strict to my NCC cadets I will. Adults how to be strict! There's a 老师 who dash across the road a few times when we're at Elgin Bridge today. Oh man. I nearly fainted there I tell you! So much of a horror when I'm such a no to unfamiliar jaywalker. Plus it's a strict no for my participants to actually dash across the road, in fact all. *heart attack* During weekend trails we actually gain more knowledge from them y'know. It's because they are much older as compared to me and therefore some might even experience those histories that I shared. Learning point, therefore I say learning through sharing will be a good one. I guess apart from the weather and the dashing across the road 老师 I did well today *claps* Peeked at what they wrote in survey, some wrote "facilitator very friendly", "facilitator very humorous and engaging". Woohoo! :D

Anyway, I was praying so hard that Chee Ming won't be around today because I had the intention to be late for work right. Thank god I'm not late, because Colonel Png(big boss) was around. Wow! (Time for some music)



Got a freaking shock when he's there. Immediately dk how to work. But he's a very good person but super duper naggy. I had better not do IBT when he's around. Encik Sulni usually take like 15 mins for SRT briefing but he took a damn 30-45 mins brief hor! Debrief was even worst I don't even know why he dragged our IBT routes out. Manzxc. Me and XingWei was so bored that we went meh~ during the briefing. The end of THEIR briefing, PCPS teachers' took a group photo. Then Colonel Png was the 'photographer'. First joke: He was standing in the middle of the fountain at Clarke Quay to take photos for them. So we're saying if ever he step wrong and the water gushes from below we will laugh. *not very funny cause didn't happen* Damnzxc. Second joke: When he was taking photos instead of counting 1,2,3. He went 西瓜甜不甜。 Then he got ignored! My first reaction was, turn to Xing Wei and we looked at each other and burst out laughing. Then when HuiLi asked about it I told her and all of us starting laughing again. Third joke: Xing Wei decided to imitate Colonel Png and then he was so near us. But heng he was talking to David and hope he didn't hear. I was facing Colonel Png's direction when Xing Wei stood beside me to say 西瓜甜不甜 then I stared at Colonel Png for a moment then Fatin, Xing Wei and I burst out laughing. So awkward if he ever hears! Hahaha~ Anyway, heard from Brother Eng that Colonel Png's son Peter Png don't have to serve the nation. He's kind of a weirdo know. Was talking about it with Xing Wei this afternoon too. Dk how to describe, weird jiu dui liao! Hahaha. 


After work, didn't go Tanjong Pagar to grab my ice-cream, instead I had a 1$ ice-cream with HuiLi and BiLing. Damn. Got my 50cents cheated. The aunty never even say earlier then just charge me 1.50$ and say give me a bigger one! Meh~ Went home with HuiLi and she's so awesome to accompany me wait for Brother Eng at Dhoby Ghaut. On the way home I actually blurt out the Dictator's story to Brother Eng because I got so egg-cited to share y'know. Then before I know I was saying "Must go watch! Damn nice!". Brother Eng gave me the sian face and said "What's more to watch when you said it all?" Hahaha. I was like still got a lot of other things I never share! Hahaha. Joke.

Alright I realise I typed a whole lengthy one today. Shall go off now. Bye readers.
*I wonder why my readers can stay on this page for a freaking 1/2 hours, what are you all reading?* Hahaha! Thanks anyway~

Till then folks! <3

Dictator; I'm enjoying the life now

Just a bit of sharing before I go to bed.



Really oh my god. Hahaha. Okay. I strongly recommend you guys to watch

Wah. You won't realise how awesome this show was till you watched. Though it's talking about dictatorship, BUT it really reflects well on it. Soooooooooooo go watch! Aldeen~ Haha. This movie made me laugh throughout like one madwoman, I swear. Okay, maybe you people should hit on the trailer first before really purchasing your movie tickets. Different people different perspective. I shall not spoil the story plot. :D

So was it because that this question that got me into all this thinking? I don't really know what to react to such now. Because... Firstly, I'm really not prepared for anything like this right now. Secondly, I'm appreciating our relationship now. Thirdly, the commitment ain't something I would really want to burden myself with. Let's say I'm just too selfish. Fourth, I don't wanna spoil the relationship between us if ever we made this changes. Fifth, I enjoy my life right now, as a single. I really would not like any changes due to this impromptu things and causes history to repeat. Then the whole cycle again. Sorry~ I would not want, I dare not, I don't want to think about it right now. I'm just too selfish, but I really just wanna stay as it is now. I wouldn't say I'm still stuck, but ya it's just the feel.

To you : Anyway, congratulations. May all be well. Happiness be with you. (:

Till then folks. <3 

Not expecting this.

I didn't expect to have confirmation of what happen so long before. When I don't want to know anything that happens before, I get to find out. What hurts the most is being so close.

I still didn't have that courage to...

Finally some time for me to update my blog. It's over, the big scale camp for this year. Bonding Camp '12 considered successful? Idk what to talk about the camp. But ya, I just wish that it will be the most memorable camp for those who attended this camp. Thanks everyone for making this camp a successful one with your participation and help. Nothing much I can write about the camp though. I enjoyed the camp and having to htht with so many of them on different days, at different time and place. They bothered to chat with me and make sure that I'm alright. Appreciated much.



After camp, I'm like facing jet lag problems. When I reached home, I slept at like 5plus pm then woke up after a god damn 3 hours. Then had difficulty to sleep till like 5plus am. Then slept the whole of Monday and only woke up at 5plus pm. Hahhaha~ Hibernating on Monday, I know right. Soooooooooo like a bear. Slept like a boss and no one dares to wake me up. *bear attack* So as I was saying when I'm facing insomnia after the 3 hours of sleep on Sunday, I woke up to watch Love Rain. Cried and cried. Dramas mah, what do you expect! Okay, I really really, 진짜 strongly recommend you guys to watch it. (Y) Awesome yozxc.

I always have some thoughts after watching dramas or when something happens.

• I always hope that if my boyfriend ever drives, he will hold onto my hand and drive with one. 
• I always wish he could take over from my Eng family the job to carry me into my room whenever I fell asleep on the sofa. 
• I always wish for little surprises from boyfriend
• I want him to always be there for me whenever I needed. 
• When he realise that I'm in some difficulty he will always appear. 
• I wish boyfriend will always hold onto my hand wherever we go. 

The list just goes on after every love drama I watch. Hahaha. 

Talked to Mama Eng about you for awhile just now. She's like why him again? Why talk to him? Hahaha. I think I should really stop communicating with you. All those little squabbles really getting me into trouble. That is why I didn't chat with you like I always will. I know it's all coming back to me, but there's no way out other than stopping it myself even when I can't. I rather feel the little hurt now than prolong my hurt. I held too long and took too long to let go. That's probably one reason that stopped me from seeing doctor and I've got the reason to not go for training. I knew one day it will be back. Camp got us started. 
Till then folks. <3

I shouldn't compare, but it's so impossible to not.

While everyone's asleep, I'm actually blogging my here. Haha. You all must be thinking, you mad sis?! Hahaha.

So it's 오빠 's birthday today. A surprise birthday for him actually. Awesome-ers actually went down to gave him a surprise. I think he really got a shock because he actually didn't believe that we remember his birthday. Having the thought that I'm in camp and won't expect to see me surprising him! Hahaha~ So it's kind of a success. Bought 4 pieces of cake for everyone to nom.

So he wasn't expecting but everyone's waiting for him by the car, but our food from Simpang Bedok just gotta expose us. Hahaha. @bingxian and me was trying our best to hide ourselves. How to ninja from a place whereby he will see us first, till a place whereby we have to pop out ourselves! Hah!

Then the sharing of supper plus the cake. Super epic when everything I said was "because it's too mainstream to~" Hahaha. I used the back of a fork and spoon as a knife to cut my Chicken Murtabak because it's too mainstream to use a knife. :D Anyway, Simpang Bedok's Murtabak still tastes good! (Y) 

Till the super epic moment of pictures time! See how epic it is, and chaotic! Hahaha~

The decent one

Decent one with Jy in.

Snatch the camera time!

See two camwhore fanatic!

Trying to block. (Y)

Then this birthday boy decides he will get the whole picture

Finally back to decent one.

But that's not the end! Hahaha

Enjoy those photos. Really miss my Awesome-ers as it's been long since such hang out. Though it's a short time. But I hope everyone enjoyed! Birthday boy especially! Be glad I break out of camp to surprise you hor! Hiak! (:

생일 축하합니다, 생일 축하합니다, 사랑하는 Andy씨, 생일 축하합니다。 

Sooooooooooooooooooo, it's the first day of camp and my dear comms feeling already the stress. I really dk how they are going to handle all this stuffs. Yes, after this camp they might not have a big scale camp for the rest of this year. But not to forget, they have to handle all this as a senior comm next year. Don't ask me why there's such a differentiation in the comm because this year's comm problem's not only about procreated problems. The internal conflict that's not told, but was all along there ain't solve and I don't think anyone got the intention to bring it up or maybe none sense it. Haha. But I hope this camp will still be somehow successful, because it's my last year in comm. So jiayou everyone! You all can do it my dear comms. Nothing can bring you all down right? Let's go~

When you don't realise doesn't mean I don't care about it. Mind about your tone when you're trying to joke. It might seem to you. But not me.
My heart died a little hearing those. You never did all this, for me. 

Till then folks, thanks for viewing! <3

Love is... You are not here now

Love means never having to say you're sorry.

Having the 3 seconds rule. 나, 둘, 셋。It has always been easy falling in love, but it's never easy to stop loving someone. In those precious 3 seconds that you first met, determines the rest of the fate with that person. How real can it be? INSLY.

Met up with my Superb Cool Kidz without the guys to celebrate my girl's 20th. Finally no Sakae nor MFM, yay! Got to pizza hut, in a way, @typoreine can have her survey/work done, and a different celebration place for us.

Old woman with her balloon!

So we actually got a very simple gift for her. Some photos taken from the past and written some rubbish words on it for her. Got her an accessory box because it's got a photo frame in front that we can put our photos! (Y) See us everyday when you doll yourself with your accessories! <3 Then a simple helium balloon as shown! No pictures for the gifts though. Shall ask @YOUHUI07 to upload someday and I will share.

Anyway, a little to share about pizza hut. They are going on with a promotion about 1-for-1 weekday promotion. As the title reveals, it's only on the weekdays, 1-for-1 meaning that you purchase ala-carte and the other's a free one! So you order two ala-cartes from them and you pay for the price of one! Grab your buddy or lovers and go down to pizza hut to enjoy this great deal! It's for the whole day. Their pizza's the regular size one though. You've got other choice of pastas or from their baked series. 2 from every category! For more information go their web! End of your day at pizza hut for a great deal and sumptuous meal~ 

Can't wait for a Korean BBQ Buffet with vball-ers later on at soju bang! (YES! Bang~) 2d1n Soju Bang againz. Okay. It's for the second time. It will be good, not walking out with only filling stomachs but end off our day with lots of laughter! Oh no. Camp's on wed and I've yet to pack my bag. Damnzxc. Shall do it later on! 

You've never really understand what I felt till date. Never did you questioned, neither will I explain about it. I don't wish to say, I don't wish to think. I should look forward to everything. Horoscope's says I'm not suppose to look back. 

Love is being caring for one another; A little updates here and there will do

Love is being together; Yes, but love should not a be a forced together
Love is simply that, but you're not here now; It's alright
Feelings are thinking of that person everyday
Feelings are drawing you out
Feelings will continue like this, so what do I do now?

You will never understand how I feel. I never intended to let you know anyway.


Till then folks, thanks for reading, appreciated! <3

Blissful comes with happiness. Let one live and happiness will come by.

10th June 2012

This day marks the start of Jiejie's married life. They called it the engagement day. Solemnization done in the presence of a very profession-like guy who got all the lawful right to pronounce them as husband and wife.

Them exchanging ring

Congratulations to Jiejie and Justin, I wish Jiejie will lead a blissful life and happiness fill her life. Always feeling that I've got a gap with Jiejie since young. Because of our temper that resembles so much that we will have times that clashes. However, she's always one that I would love to stick to whenever I'm young. Maybe because we're the only two female in the cousins gang! Haha. No matter what Jiejie, I love you! Justin had better be good to you and fulfill what he had read out in front of all of us today! 

In Mariott's toilet #OOTD

11th June 2012 

This day marks the official start of my 2 weeks break from my school. However, it's my dearest girl's 20th Birthday. 

Idk why but this picture always seems
 like she's hugging me! <3

생일 축하합니다, 생일 축하합니다, 사랑하는 Youhui씨, 생일 축하합니다. Missed the auspicious time of 12am sharp. Therefore was a tad late, sorry! Typed too long a text and passed the time! Anyway, I hope you will enjoy your day later on. Be it good or bad, live it to the fullest. I hope you can put down the past and really bring yourself forward, get going and don't look back, for it's not worth it. Stop thinking about he will be back and bring more hurt to yourself okay! Jiayou, old woman! I love you! :D

Nevertheless, had a little time for myself to get my HK drama done. You know it's such a great turnover till the very end. This is a very drastic change for HK drama. Up till now, almost all the HK dramas I've watched haven't got this turnover in their storyline before. Got the feeling of being cheated. Along I thought Lady Tsun will rescue His Majesty, then she got to be Empress in the end and they will be so happy together. Because after all, they've been through soooooooooo much together. In this story line, I felt that one's life will really change after meeting all those craps in life. Why? I really have problems believing the end fact that the Lady Tsun (Yes! She became the Empress in the end) became such a vicious woman and resemble so much like those who tried to harm her in the harem back then. Le sigh. A way to self defend? But why such a way? Okay. Too much into dramas! Shall continue on my Love Rain soon, before I get so dejected about the story plot of the HK drama againzzzzzz. 

Till then, folks! <3

Thanks for reading! (:

Hall of shame ; 감사합니다

There's two things I'm to rant about, bear with me or you can choose to close this window off.
First up, the angry one. Okay, up till here, for those who followed my twitter, I bet you guys will go "Aiya, you must be gonna talk about the guy who pushed the elderly woman down the bus". *Ding-dong-deng* You're right. I'm just gonna do so because I really can't stand such act happening! I know this might be a thing that's so common and just that no one bothers to blow up until this video was posted. Likewise the same one for the Ferrari case, if not been for that case that was blown up so huge, the Lexus case wouldn't be known to so manyyyyyyyyy.
You people should really watch this video! For those who haven't watched!



So the elderly woman took the 167 bus service and wanted to alight at the roadside of Upper Thomson, but she gotten herself a push down the bus by a grown-up man just because she pressed the bell to ask the driver to stop at the very last minute. What grave mistake did the elderly woman did to have gotten a push down the bus? Mr Alex Ong, why not you explain all this shit to us? Before you did so, have you thought of what will happen if this happens to you or your relatives? Yes, I don't deny the fact that everyone will be annoyed by the pressing of bell at the very last minute. But hey, have this ever cross your mind that maybe it's the first time the elderly woman pass by this place going to a place that she's totally familiar with or as you said she's old, so she might just realise that that's her stop to alight? Don't tell me you've never forgotten anything like this or similar before. Evil begets evil. Think before you act. After pushing her down and you proclaim about educating her. So who do you think you are to actually educate her? Maybe you've got more studying experience than her, but I can tell you this, her life exposure will definitely not lose you and even win you as compared to how you win her in studying experience. I believe you have your elderly in your bloodline too. Think about it, what if someone treats them the way you did to this elderly woman that day? Will you fume about it? What's more cursing her. Gentleman, is this how you ought to behave? I'm really curious of what cross your mind to have those snide remarks. Telling police that you don't mean to hurt her. So do you mind explaining yourself in raising your hands in the first few lines of "conversation" with her, then the act of pushing her down the bus with your own hands! Worst of all,citing that "It's just that when you're angry, your mind gets into a state of disarray." By this, do you mean that when I'm angry I can grab a knife and stab into you, then walk out of all criminal laws by saying what you've said? Hey, that's not the way dude. You reap what you sow. 


Just can't stand all this actions. Especially being rude to elderly, it's big NO to me. Soooooooo, this incident caused me to be super agitated and at the same time, worried for my 皇太后。 After tmr will be the end of my paper. I've got work on Saturday probably will visit her if I'm not going to flea. If not I will do so on Monday since I can't go for training anyway. ): Talking about training, really miss those times whereby I can just play and not be bothered by all those craps. I always go for running whenever I'm trapped with problems. In a way, I believe that running actually helps to clear my mind from all those thinking. Now I can't and I don't have any way to replace off this. So tempted to just wear my Brother Eng's mizuno for a run. Le sigh. #firstworldpain


Alright, now for the second thing in mind. 

Yes, my super duper awesome bitchy gossipy karma level gao gao girl. Never in my poly life I felt so attached to someone other than her. She's one that I will run to whenever I have problems. She's always there for me whenever I have problems. No matter with relationship, with friends, with studies. It's always her. Other than my Superb Cool Kidz girl's she's the next one who will let me feel the love/dote that I will get from my Superb Cool Kidz. In poly life, no other girlfriends of mine will be so bothered about my stuffs and treating every problem of mine like theirs, she's the only one who does. No matter what, whenever what. Yes, there's times that I dislike her attitude against something, but I learnt to accept her as I know she's important to me. I will accept her for who she is because that's her true self, the one that I truly knows. I will complain about her, I will scold her for doing foolish things. All because I love her! Recently, been drifting apart from her. Due to lesser meet-ups because as I said in the previous post I get distracted easily. So CT period I haven't been seeing her till just now. Felt soooooooooo apart. In different world, not used to it. I hope during holidays we can meet up more! Nua together after my camp okay! *I wonder if you read* 

No matter what, 언니, 난 당신을 사랑해! <3

A best friend shares the good times and help you out by listening during the bad times


I wanna thank you for being in my life! 감사합니다



Till then, folks! <3
감사합니다 for you guys for reading my blog too! Thank you song for all of you! 

I would lie and say that you're not on my mind

Great things ought to be shared.

Yay! I'm done with FCS papers. Though I only did 2 and a half of them. In fact, I've only got 3 past Common Test papers for me to try out. Did 2 of them with the help of the answers Vincent did them. Was really a great model answer thing for me to refer to and spot some mistakes while doing the papers. Missed out all the fun in studying with my Awesome-ers. Because I felt really bad studying with so many people when I don't have the mood. Everything(YES! E-V-E-R-Y-T-H-I-N-G!) just distracts me, like strangers walking by, people around me talking, even slight movements! So I feels so weird that I've gotta plug in my earpiece and starts blasting my songs because my earpiece ain't plug-in type. (Damn it!)

Sooooo, as I've said, done with FCS. 진짜? Haha. I do doubt myself too. It's not very much prepared like MEDT. Because MEDT's paper was 80% on calculation and 20% on theory. Could afford to forgo some of the theory. But FCS, if it's a lot of theory tmr I'm gonna die on the spot! (Hooray then I can forget about studying OOPG) Haha. 네, no matter what, I'm gonna try my best to complete the papers. I'm gonna try reading up more on theory and taadaa. Go for my paper! 

Being here at this hour, ain't right. Thank god I'm having late afternoon paper. Didn't study for the whole of today as planned. (Not that I don't want to!) I'm not mad at anyone. Age gap/generation gap/different point of view? I don't get how you guys take the design things so lightly. Simply googling and taking it as the design. Le sigh. I don't want to take away the design saying, "I don't think it's nice" because I don't want to seem like giving you authority and taking it back. 

Let's just say, I ask you to do minutes, but I'm doing it in the same time. You will feel that I don't trust you right? That's what I'm bothered about. Feeling guilty having to change the design, but in anyway, the last minute changes was due to the low resolution you guys got me. In anyway, 미안 해요。I hope you guys understand. 

Okay, I just did a google search on myself. (Sounds so dumb, but I did!) Let you guys see! 

So anyone who typed "chewytomatoes" will see my blog and twitter plus many many. Haha! So amazed by it. Was still telling @jiahechew that my safeAssign work for WISP I think I should google every sentence I typed so as to make a 0% plagiarism report! Haha. Anyway, if anyone were to google "chewytomatoes" I think that person who don't know me at all, has a great mind too! Because great mind thinks alike! I think I'm super awesome to be able to come up with this name! Hahaha. 

Let me end off with this.

A note to myself : 

Please buy enough pepero for yourself to nom for camp! 

For my great audience here! <3

Till then, minions! :D 안녕히 주무세요

아는지 나는 아직도 당신을 사랑해

多的是 你不知道的事

I've been randomly humming on this song from like ytd. Wanted to post it after I off my laptop ytd! So now here it is! A song that make mind wanders off. Take a seat back and listen to it. Enjoy~

Sooooo, it's the first paper for my CT today. Officially my CT commence as the clock strikes at 11am sharp. Tried my best to do whatever calculation questions that I can do. Hopefully there's no mistake with it. Let theory questions a go, because I didn't even bother reading up the theory questions. I guess I'm quite glad today's paper didn't demoralize me. Hope this can don't make me slacken for my FCS paper! All the best Elaine! 2 more papers and you're like a free bird~

In anyway, was busy the whole of the night doing up the things for the bonding camp shirt. Don't come asking me about why this design when it comes out. I've got no decision with the design as majority wins. However, got a new supplier and did everything myself. *proud* Okay. I understand that it's CT period now. You could actually tell me you didn't do what I told you to, I'm actually fine with it. But you gave me a whole lots of crap excuses. So what does it mean by you did the thing but then... Show me what you've done and not talk. Then you go around mocking at me for stalking freshies because I asked about "who-who-who" is freshie/helper. I'm helping you to clear up your mess and I don't think it's funny, dude! Who on earth got the free time to stalk people on fb. Maybe there is, but I don't freaking have that time. Let alone stalk some people that's so much younger than me. *rolleyes*

Shall watch some running man before I continue some revision tmr when I wake up. Park Ji Sung! Rio Ferdinand! Woohoo~ *fangirl screams*

Till then, folks! <3
Love isn’t something you can see, but its something you can feel