It all mean something, whether or not we take it to heart. Not that we feel that it's not weighing our heart out and it's doesn't matter to us at all. People might live a carefree life, but not when you see that person's always wearing that same cheerful smile, joking and fooling around. You never know deep down that's the smile that she wears to protect or stop the loved ones from worrying.
Once a upon a time, when this particular girl stepped into a new phase of her life and introduced into so many new things all at once. From a place where she's being protected, guided with care and concern to a place where she gotta be all independent and guide herself along. She's so afraid of the whole new phase in life, a better change or situation where it's too big a scale for her? However a way, she gotta manage.
With all her might and courage, she entered with the greatest smile, leaving the past bad memories back and decided it's a good time for her to walk out of all those bad past. All that she's struggling was managing her new friends and old friends, independent academic, having all the free time for what she likes.
When she finally decided to drag all her new friends into this one thing that she's into. Walking to the place with a super nervous feeling with all her new friends, to a somewhat familiar yet unfamiliar places. The nervous feeling fills her surrounding and she could feel her heart thumping really loud. The whole atmosphere was so different, a whole lot different from how she use to be in that familiar place. It was so crowded, and not the usual spacious place. Then all eyes were fixed on them, it made my heart thump even faster. She's not thinking about questions to ask, but asking questions like "How's my hair?"
Then at one glance, this guy walking towards them. That feeling that burns her ears. She was wondering "Oh god! How can any guy be so attractive that would mesmerize any girl that walk pass." Obviously not being able to concentrate on the conversation going on and only being super shy." After he walked away, she's constantly glancing at his suave back as he walk further.
Then she tried to persuade her friends, by hook or by crook, they had to go with her, but not letting the reason known. All she did was grin and awaits the arrival of every day to see him weekly. That's it, she consider him as eye-candy, as she never once felt that she would get close to him, for not even a chat. Then she started to look through social media in search for every details for her eyecandy. Wanting to get his information and knowing all about him. However, she's not in hope that one day they would be together, let alone being friends or close friend. So again, she let her carefree life in her new phase, being all happy-go-lucky. Whatever that comes she's bound to smile off and carry on with her life...
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